roots

I was born in North Carolina and raised in South Carolina. so I'm southern inside and out. there's no where else I'd rather live than a big white two story house with a wrap around porch--it must have a porch swing and a wicker table. and while most southern girls are obsessed with gossip, boys and always looking good, I am different. I enjoy manners and saying "sir" and "ma'am" to my elders, but I don't care about always having my hair big and fixed with perfectly matched makeup. I like having wild long hair and wearing mascara. A cat nap on a porch swing sounds better to me than a glass of sweet tea. My favorite foods are mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, green beans, and biscuits. My favorite drinks are skim milk and Kool-Aid. I like spending a day at the lake eating water melon and watching the sunset on the edge of the dock.  I love boiled peanuts and diet coke. Nascar is one of my favorite sports. The rivalry between Clemson and Carolina is the biggest one in all of sports as far as I'm concerned. I think southern accents sound normal and are incredibly sexy. I'd rather drive a truck than a sports car. Pine trees are a breath of fresh air and Myrtle Beach holds more of my childhood than vacations. When I was a kid I thought the coolest thing ever was standing on the SC/NC state line at Carowinds because I was in two places at once. also, I'll be wearing ribbons in my ponytails until I can't wear a ponytail anymore.

oh, and as far as I'm concerned, "ain't" is a word and always will be.

I am the child who will never grow up.

lately I've been discovering life or not. my life consists of sleep, food, babysitting, family and friends. my dear friend Emily is so lost that it breaks my heart. Kaytie is just as unsure as I am. my parents think I'm crazy. my brother gets married this Saturday. that's like 5 days. shoot me now. and what am I doing with my life? nothing really.
I am sitting in a chair at home, watching reruns of America's Next Top Model, while my dad spends his vacation day in the computer room eating and my dog is walking around getting ready to croak any day now. he can't even sit because he's in so much pain. I'm typing this for no one to read and in about an hour I'll leave to babysit for a couple hours.

I've realized that if I go to "college" it will never feel right because Bridgewater is my college home. I am no good at online college. so where do I go and what do I do when Bridgewater is too expensive and I can't do online? degrees, money, nice clothes...they don't matter to me. I don't want to spend my nights drinking and partying, ending up doing regretful things that I won't remember. all I care about is God and people. I want people to love as much as I have.

Sisters

so I got to take pictures for Kaytie and Holly. they were so silly! they really are like my own sisters. Holly and I might even go into business one day :)

she's gorgeous

laughter

the only good serious one

KayJ's new TOMS

sometimes she cooperates

cracks me up everytime

sisters

MESS.

I am a mess. I am scatter brained. I stay up too late. I forget to do homework. I work. I'm trying to find a second job. I hate school. I love photography. There is nothing that makes me happier than singing and praising. the world is crazy. I am to please God, not people.

1 Corinthians 13

the Bible says love is the following:
⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. [1 Corinthians 13:4-7]

in my little mind, it's so many other things.